tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918105604270007470.post7403377662981435054..comments2023-10-09T15:47:14.355-04:00Comments on And you may ask yourself-well...how did I get here?: PerfectionStarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18241931590875029855noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918105604270007470.post-83320694654555480162011-04-18T23:42:57.574-04:002011-04-18T23:42:57.574-04:00I remember my 17 days of absolute bliss too. Being...I remember my 17 days of absolute bliss too. Being engaged finally to the one person I wanted to be with for the rest of my life.... the rest of his life.<br /><br />And I know I have fallen in love again. And you're right. It's fucking scary. I have cried numerous times to Ryan about how I can't stand the thought of losing him. And not just to him leaving... but to someting GOD AWFUL happening to him. And no one should have to live in that type of fear. <br />I think what you have with Mr. X is great and you should just go ahead and take the leap in. <br />:) <br /> I love you.Autumnhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01309299074271755923noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6918105604270007470.post-83140164278194376832011-04-17T21:38:26.289-04:002011-04-17T21:38:26.289-04:00I feel the same way. Although I also don't rea...I feel the same way. Although I also don't really know where the "perfection" counter should actually start. When Charley and I got back together? When we got married? When Anna was born? <br /><br />All I know is that I felt so incredibly blessed and lucky to be married to my best friend and to have everything I'd ever dreamed of…which made it all the more wrenching and devastating when it was ripped away after only 19 months of marriage.<br /><br />Which, comparatively to you, was still better than 6 months for you…but it's taken until the last year or two for me to really feel JUST how young we were, how karmically and cosmically robbed we were, to be widowed at 27 and with less than 3 years together, for both of us. Before, the pain was too great and I couldn't really absorb it. But now that I'm 5.5 years out and in my mid-30s, I can finally realize just how deep of a loss it was.<br /><br />Which totally sucks, too. I still hate all of it…(and then again, I'm admittedly having a crummier, rockier week than usual, because of my friend's husband's death this week…boo).<br /><br />I ordered a copy of Matt's book on Friday…and one on off-camera lighting techniques. ;o) Quite the mix, eh?<br /><br />Hugs, my friend!Candicehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11637366044613952294noreply@blogger.com