Recently I have been scared.
Actually, I guess more like paranoid.
As the weather has warmed up, and summer is officially here.
As August creeps closer.
I keep thinking someone is going to die.
Someone I love.
Someone I care about.
Someone close to me.
And not in a normal way.
In a car accident specifically.
There is blood usually.
I do not feel paralyzed by this fear but if someone is late.
Or I do not hear from a friend.
It is my first thought.
They are dead.
I am especially scared of Mr. X dying again.