They ignore the fact we are mortal beings.
At least while they are young.
Because only old people die, right?
I finally took myself to my lawyer's office this afternoon.
I finally started the will/trust process.
Because I am constantly thinking I might die.
Maybe next week.
Maybe in a year.
But I need to be prepared.
I have had this worry in the last (almost) two years of what will happened if I die tomorrow.
As I spoke to the lawyer, most of my questions were "If I die next week..."
"If I die next year..."
"What happens to _______
if I die before next month?"
My lawyer finally says "You know, more than likely, you are going to live for years and years."
"You are not going to die soon statistically speaking."
"Most of my clients I have to remind them of their mortality but you are living like you are going to die any day now."
I am just jaded.
My life as I knew it ended abruptly.
Roger was full of life. Healthy and just beginning a new chapter.
And it ended in an instant.
No blinking lights.
No years of waiting for the moment.
What makes me so immortal?
What makes me so special that I will live till I am ninety?
Why will I not end the same?
Why will my life be different?
My life could end just as quickly.
I could die young too.
I guess I am jaded that it is not impossible.