Tuesday, November 30, 2010

My Ring, Again

I swear I feel like each November/December since widowness I have had ring issues.
Two years ago, I had my ring redesigned and a meltdown in the store.
Last year,  I lost a stone from the old wedding band and had a slight meltdown.
This year, at least my meltdown was when I was alone.

I went to get my ring inspected.
The stone from the engagement ring part was loose.  It was twisting in the setting.
I cannot imagine losing that!
So they had to take it away from me.
Only for a day but...

Then I turned around.
A face.
So familiar.
Wait, she was here four years ago.
The November I received my ring.
She is the one who helped Roger and me find the perfect diamond.
She was sweet and non-pressuring.
Does she recognize me?
Did she hear about the redesign and meltdown?
Does she just think I am a divorcee?

On my drive home, I looked down at my hand and noticed I now have a ring tan.
On my right hand. Not my left.
I did not cry in the store this time.
I cried in my car.

Roger, I miss you.

5 comments:

Janine (txmomx6) said...

Oh Star ....
There Are No Words.
Thinking of you .....

Funny Girl said...

Isn't it crazy how much sentimental value a ring possesses? Last weekend I lost the first ring Kobfa ever bought me. Though not an engagement/wedding ring, I had a meltdown at work and was bummed all day. I returned to the bus depot where I thought I lost it and ran around frantically in the pouring rain looking for it. :o(

Emily Garvin said...

The wedding/engagement ring is such a powerful symbol of the love you shared with your spouse - I can't even look at mine without bawling. I had to stop wearing it because it just broke my heart so much. I have been thinking about redesigning it and after reading your post maybe I will actually get on that now.

**HUGS**

Supa Dupa Fresh said...

I'm so sorry.
Love to you this dark season.

Hira Animfefte (Xera Anymphefte) said...

Dear Star,
(((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))