My heart was racing.
My palms were sweating.
And I was in disguise.
Hair really straight & completely violating the dress code with jeans, flipflops, and a sleeveless shirt.
Some people hadn't seen me with the bangs either so I was very well hidden.
At least I pretended to be.
No, this isn't the scene of some Sherlock Holmes movie.
Just my office.
After a suggestion from my lovely sister-in-law and my therapist, today I went to visit my office after expressing how I did not want to think about what it was going to be like there.
I took the stairs into the office versus the elevator to avoid anyone I didn't want to see.
I stealthily walked around.
First I ran over to Siobhan's desk.
No one home.
I sat there to make some calls.
I freaked some people out who were not expecting me and I certainly don't look like Siobhan sitting at her desk.
I visited quite a few people and all in all not bad.
I only cried twice and realized I have more in common with some people than I ever knew.
And it definitely was not as scary as I anticipated.
Whew, huge sigh of relief!
Now when November comes, it will probably be still a little awkward but not half as awkward had I not visited.
I do miss seeing some of the folks.
I had lunch with a few people and it was nice to see them as always.
I don't miss the working though.
Next up on the agenda for tomorrow... nothing.
Tomorrow is my nothing day.
I'm looking forward to some nice PJs and doing lots of nothingness.