When writing out Roger's name, I can not let it be uncapitalized.
I know that does not seem too odd but no one else gets this treatment.
When I am instant messaging or quick email, I rarely capitalize people's names.
I barely even do a capital "I" when instant messaging.
It just a bad habit of typing fast and not taking my time or giving proper respect to people.
But for Roger, I feel like I'm disrespecting him if I leave it as a small "r".
Even if I accidently type "r", I go back and fix it before I hit send.
It reminds me of the way I am with the word "God."
I have to capitalize that word too.
Maybe it is a respect for Roger now that he is gone.
Cause I did not respect his name like that before.
Yeah... crazy grief girl.