Halloween

Halloween is on Saturday.

Three years ago on Halloween, Roger and I got engaged.

So much has changed in those three years.

We moved in together.

We bought a house.

We became landlords.

Roger got a passport.

We got married.

Roger died.

It amazes me even how much I have changed too.

And now how different my life is.

I am single again.

Not working.

In school full-time.

And dating a wonderful guy - Mr. X.

But not with Roger which seems odd for only being engaged three years ago.

I am having our-turned-my annual Halloween party this weekend.

Once again without Roger.

Once again with the amazing support of many friends.

The weird thing is I am reusing an old costume.

The same costume I wore the day I got engaged.

I did not really think about it till today when I pulled it into the house for it to get a makeover.

A lot like me.

Same bones. New girl.

Now as long as I can put on my party face instead of the way I feel at this moment, that will be good.

I will try.

I will put on a mask and try.