It is not that big of a deal.
Except it is.
Today, by accident, I deleted our AIM chat logs.
I use a website called meebo to communicate with IM.
I have been using it for probably two years or so.
It makes it easier.
Everything is online.
I do not have download an application or some software.
It is on any computer with Internet access.
I can organize all my buddies into whatever groups I want no matter what their IM program.
I love it.
Today I wanted to kill it.
I was having issues talking to Mr. X on AIM.
So I tried some troubleshooting techniques.
I signed on. I signed off.
I removed the AIM account.
I added the AIM account.
And then I wanted to cry.
Fuck... OMG... What did I do...
So I checked what I thought might be true.
What I feared what be true.
I went to Roger's screenname.
I checked to see if our chat history was still available.
The log of all our numerous chats.
An almost daily occurrence more than fourteen months ago.
And when I looked for them, they were gone.
I fucking deleted them.
And because the computer hates me, it said "Start chatting with Roger now for a chat history."
Man, I wish I could chat with him.
I wish I could have a chat history with him.
But I cannot.
It is a small loss I know.
But another small thing.
And I could probably try to get them back but...
They still happened.
And I have a few recorded on this blog.