After working indirectly with the healthcare industry for eleven years, I like watching and seeing the hospital environment.
But seriously, I think there should be a warning to widows about each episode.
Like a the MPAA system for movies.
The season finale should have been a X-rated.
I knew it was going to be sad.
They have been working up to it all season.
And I have pretty much cried through this entire season with different characters and story lines.
Thursday's was probably the worst (besides the first one of the season which I may have wrote about).
Complete sobbing with almost an inability to stop.
Yes, the story was sad.
But the "moral" of the story was what got me.
The main character, Meredith, talked about how people have to tell their loved ones how much they are loved. Make a plan.
Before it is too late.
Before it is too fucking late.
I still cannot get over how I did not tell Roger that morning.
He stood there expressing his love to me.
Telling me how he was doing all this stuff for me.
And all I did was smile.
I stood there and smiled!!
Yes, I know I know - "Oh, Roger knew how you felt."
Blah blah blah.
But it does not change the fact I did not tell him that morning.
THAT morning. Of all mornings.
When he could still hear me.
When he could still understand me.
And do not give me the "Oh, he could hear you while he was in the coma."
Actually no, he couldn't.
That part of his brain was so far gone.
So no, he did not hear me or understand me.
If I talked to him, it was for me.
I will continue to watch this show.
Even without the widow warning system.
Even if it makes me cry.
Even if it hurts a little.