I am 99% sure my ring was fine when I handed it over.
When the jewelry store woman returned it to me, she made the comment, "Nice design. I love the smiley face."
"Thanks. What smiley face? I've never noticed a smiley face."
To my horror, one of my wedding band diamonds encircling my engagement diamond was missing.
I was shocked.
I know it was there five minutes before.
Jewelry store woman said it was like that when I gave it to her.
But thanks to a warranty on the ring and the diamonds, it would be replaced.
Yeah, replaced with a non-wedding band diamond.
Replaced with a diamond that has no sentimental value.
I tried explaining this to the jewelry store woman.
I do not think she really cared.
But yes, I wanted it replaced.
And it was.
But I lost one of the wedding band diamonds.
It was not just the monetary value I lost, it was more.
I was upset to say the least.
Now, I am scared to wear it.
Great... just great.
Another weird thing is when I do wear it, people have been noticing it.
Mostly just "nice ring" or "pretty ring" is what I hear.
And I mostly just say "Thanks" and keep moving especially with people I am never likely to see again like a cashier but also lately I have also been divulging information about the ring to classmates.
I guess I am kind of proud of it (?).
Of what it represents.
Of how I had a huge part in what it looks like.
But I before I just jump into "Oh, this is my engagement ring and wedding ring combined. See, my husband died and I wanted to keep wearing the ring but just not 'the' ring" I sort of pause but sort of not.
I try to judge if the person can handle hearing this story but only as I start to tell it.
The story almost falls automatically out of my mouth and then I hear the words coming out of my mouth and feel guilty and I want to stop.
But I cannot.
I stumble over each next word.
"Crap, now what will this person think?"
"Great, where will this go next?"
I should just say "Thanks" and keep moving.
I really should stop freaking people out.
What is this newish need to divulge again?