Back in December, I expressed some annoyance with the stupid jerk aka stupid fucking asshole that hit us.
Last night, on the eve of the five month anniversary of Roger's death (today), I got my summons for court.
Opening that envelope just felt so deflating.
Why is this guy being such a jerk?!
Does he realize he will have to see me?
Does he realize I will have to see him?
I still wonder why he wants to go to court.
The only things I can think of are: 1) he does not want to lose his license, 2) he does not want to pay the fines, 3) he is a complete asshole and has gone to court for every ticket he has even got.
The evil part of me hopes the court shows him no mercy.
I hope they given him the maximum they can do.
I feel like I have been merciful enough for everyone.
I hate that I will know his face.
I do not remember it now but I will remember it forever after Tuesday.
I will know his voice.
I will know his gait.
I will know that this is the man that changed my whole life forever.
The man who took away the best husband I could have asked for.
The man who made my life miserable for the last five months.
You fucking asshole! How could you do this to me again?
Why do you continue to want to haunt me?