"Cheers, Star"

I used to sign all my emails, notes, and cards as "Cheers, Star"

It started years ago.

Way before I went to Australia or England.

I cannot actually remember when it started.

It just kind of became part of me.

My signature of sorts.  

I liked it because it was friendly.

It was sweet.

And it was different than most people.

But after Roger died.

I could not use it.

It seemed too happy.

It seemed like I was happy.

It seemed like I was being fake.

So I just would not use it.

I refused.

I would sign things as just me.

Maybe with a hyphen.

Maybe not even at all.  

However, it has returned.

I find myself wishing people well.

I find myself "cheering" them again.

And I mean it.  

It is nice to have my signature back.

It feels good to have that part of me return.

It is such a simple thing but yet I like it.  

And I know it is all about the small steps moving forward.

Baby steps at a time.  

So cheers!