Still don't remember...

It is beyond frustrating having a moment of your life disappear.

I remember almost everything.

I can recall things from when I was three and four.

I can recall names of ex-girlfriends of my friends even when they cannot.  

So to have even just sixty seconds completely gone is making me insane.  

I thought perhaps if I sat inside a similar car maybe something would come back.  

Maybe just being in the same car and repositioning myself I would remember just a little more.

Maybe remember his shirt.

Remember if I said something.

Remember if he said anything.

I still do not know his last words.

Maybe remember what happened from impact through my current memory of getting out of the car.

Today, I got a chance to sit in a friend's car.

I sat there.

And I sat there.

And nothing.

I repositioned myself.

Took off my shoes.

Tried to remember.

Anything.

Something.

I started to get upset.

At me.

At the world.

And the cool part about everything, my guy friends came over to rescue me.

Because I probably would have just sat there all night.

But they came over and opened the door.

They made sure I was okay.

And I am okay.

But I still do not remember a damn thing...